it's me again ( L)
if those stories about you and billy were real, you might be able to understand this.
couple days ago i found out that MR X got engaged to one of his young sister's friends
so you can imagine how betrayed i feel right now, how confused
i'm starting to guess that he dumped me for her since his reaction was extremely childish and unexplainable.
a lot of questions comes to my mind now, when did this start between them?
did he really cheat on me?
was it even real between us?
i pray every day that she do to him the same he did to me.
when i found out i felt like my heart stopped for a second.
that AS#$%&L hurt me then went to live his life and got engaged !!
god knows when this relationship between them started but
GOD i'm full of anger, i'm mad as hell
every day before i go to sleep i say حسبى الله ونعم الوكيل and i just can't stop saying it for an hour!
things like ( move on like he did ) don't seem to help anymore
the anger and hatred i feel right now is eating me inside and i don't like that.
i hate that i'm hurt again because of him
still can't see a therapist, and even shezlong (which you recommended) is not even close to budget.
thank you for reading