Luci Guest Writer 
Hi everyone, I'm sorry again for not being able to give you an update last week, but to say things are crazy on my end is an understatement.
So...as you may have read, I took a pregnancy test and it came out positive. Faisal is over the moon happy, as for me...well I'm still in freak out mode. Maybe actually overwhelmed seems to be a better fitting word. Freaking out about not only being pregnant, but pregnant during the COVID-19!!
It's like my brain does not know which part to process exactly at this point. Sure I wanted kids, eventually...but of all the times to get pregnant, now seems like the worst time ever!
I still haven't called my parents and told them, all I seem to be doing is google the negative impacts of being pregnant during COVID-19. I just really wanted to be ready and actually enjoy my pregnancy, you know a whole new chapter in my life. But, with the self-isolation and curfews I'm not so sure how enjoyable this can be?
Women are usually super cautious with their first pregnancy, I worry I'll be one of those crazy over-protective pregnant women if not insane mother. Who knows how long this quarantine will go on for, weeks? Months?
How am I supposed to go in for my check-ups without being terrified I might expose myself and my baby to harm? Of course, Faisal seems to think I am over reacting, he actually thinks this is a perfect opportunity, since I am already working from home, I get to take it easy and have a 'smoother' pregnancy. Don't know who made him a doctor all of a sudden, but okay...
We're supposed to call our parents today and let them in on the, 'good news' tonight, but I just don't have it in me to fake happy. The truth is I'm not, I'm scared and overwhelmed, the thought of becoming a parent was something I was planning on putting off for as long as I could, I wanted to travel more, I had a whole list of countries I wanted to visit. I had so many plans for my career, now what's going to happen. Are all my hopes and dreams going to take a back seat for this child?
Make sure to read my next post Saturday at 11:00 AM (Cairo time) to find out how I'm dealing with my pregnancy during this Coronavirus outbreak.
